That's the first and only thing I thought when I looked at the calendar yesterday. This is because of two reasons.
Firstly: I faced the ugly truth that it's been, oh, ya know, just about a year and a half since my last post. I know. I have no good excuse. I understand if you don't forgive me. But I'm back, badder than ever, and here to stay. So I hope we can turn a new page and still be friends.
Secondly: I HAVE 15 MORE DAYS OF HIGH SCHOOL. EVER. THE BIGGEST 'WHAT' I'VE EVER THOUGHT. I remember the Summer before I started 9th grade, I sat down at my sister's computer and scrolled through every month on the calendar, until I reached May 2015, FOUR YEARS IN ADVANCE FROM THEN (If that doesn't tell you how excited I was for "the best four years of my life" I don't know what will). I remember thinking, oh, that's not too bad. I can make it. Now, that special May is a few days away. The kind of feelin' I feel is a weird one. I'm both ready and scared, content and regretful, longing for the future and nostalgic, basically just all the mixed feelings a human could possibly feel rolled into one. My future is quite possibly the most important, delicate, sacred, best-kept thing I've ever held. I can't really explain it. I just have more dreams and desires than the average joe. I've always put so much hope, planning, and dreaming into it. But it's always felt so far away, like a distance, other life I was just helping plan. So, now that it's practically here, and I'm starting to realize it's my life and I make the next move, and the move after that, and the move after that, I'm a little confused. Yet completely thrilled. Everything I've ever wanted to do with my life is possible, and it's closer than ever.
So I thought it'd be fitting to post some of my favorite Senior photos taken this past summer by the incredible photographer, Kelsey Peper. So excited to start blogging again!
-Leah
